One of two pains

Jim Rohn says
We must all suffer from one of two pains: the pain of discipline or the pain of regret. The difference is discipline weighs ounces while regret weighs tons.

Romans 15:13
Now may God, the source of hope, fill you with all joy and peace as you believe, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit.

Philippians 1:6
being confident of this, that he who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus

The pain of discipline is what I choose. My godly sorrow, leading to repentence. I will make dinner, I will be the keeper of this house. I will lovingly declare myself, respectfully. I will honor my family by serving them clothes, dinner, stories, time, swimming, sleep. Arbonne will serve us. Summer job will serve us. We will serve Him - the maker of heaven and earth.

Father, I'm craving a dream - a family vision beyond this "argh, we spend more than we make" mire. I feel manic - between pinched and generous, tight and plenty. The lists spin in my head, making me dizzy and immobilized - frozen, not in action. Not in prayer.

Take care then how you hear, for to the one who has, more will be given, and from the one who has not, even what he thinks that he has will be taken away (Luke 8:18)

I'm duly warned. Now action.