I have a new business partner. He thinks the mouse on the screen is enthralling - me, too, kitty - I'm obsessed with that computer screen, too :)He loves me today! I needed this kitty to love me today b/c I was speaking blasphemous "maybe he's not the right one for us?" thoughts out loud earlier this week. But today he decided (b/c we all know that kitties are in charge and decide what their owners should do) to reveal his sweetness to us - and to me specifically.
It reminds me of a story I read in a favorite book (Captivating) of when the author prayed that God would allow her to see a whale when she was on a boat trip (on the ocean, of course, I mean. And she did see whales). She needed the personal God-touch ta-da at that time. I've had a wretched week - I've been needing some comfort. The kids and hubby weren't covering it - not because of any lack on their part, but because of my own selfish striving. And I was determined to make this cat like me (I'm a "pleaser' through and through!) - and todays kitty-satisfaction fit just exactly in with a new resolve to put away frustration and excuses. So much of my emotions are a determined decision - I hate confessing that b/c I wish it were "not my fault". But I must choose to obey, choose to worship, choose to be patient - these are my high callings - these are things empowered by His sweet Spirit residing here within me.
Not grit-my-teeth and choose.
No, give-up and choose.
I don't have it within me to overcome this world. But my God does. So I give-up, and then I conquer!
Reach for those goals!!
(Festus reaching for my bulletin board where I have all my "someday" goals - see Kevin's photo there with the print across the bottom "I love my job"!)
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